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| 09:23pm 18/07/2005 |
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mood:  crazy music: get right
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hmm.. well evrything's okei na... bati na kmi ng aking dear "best friend" hayaay anyway.. hmm.. may quiz p kmi sa physics tomorrow...snap! golly..wish ko lang mataas ako...(nyak feeling..)ehehe but anyway, i have a multiply na..: justeenee.multiply.com.. i want it to be sana as justinee kaso someone owns it na... so anyway..haay til here na...bye! |
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| God's good |
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| 07:43pm 06/07/2005 |
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mood:  content music: more to life-stacie orrico
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I think, this day was the most wonderful of all so far... because finally, God had paid off all my sacrifices, hardships, and patience. At last, one good thing happened to me now...that is, I was chose to be a photojournalist for our school paper...yeepee! i mean, it wasn't that easy you know because we have to take six pictures...so i should have a good picture that will show a good story and also a good caption for it...and also i have to borrow a digicam because i don't have one...the only cam that i got is the standard one...and besides, it's easier to work on digicam and less expensive when you will have to develop the pictures because you can choose whatever pic you like compared to the standard one. Another is, uhm i think we were 11 or 13 who applied for photojourn and they'll only pick 3 aspiring applicants so it was a tough competition...whew! good thing i was qualified to be one..hehe..i'm really so happy today..because i really want to be a photojourn (I've been a photojourn since last year.But we have to apply again because we have a new adviser). It is like my passion-to take pictures...hmm i was thinking nga if i'll get photography or fashion design in the future as my sideline... ehehe... but anyway i'm also happy because after all the bad things that happened to me, at last, it was paid off by God. God is really good... Maybe, the position that i applied for last time wasn't for me so He made another plan that would be for me. But I think i'm doing a really good job as a Comelec Commissioner and as a company commander in the CAT..because I've realized that I can show my abilities even if i don't have a high position...so, i'm contented in the position that I have now. oh well...maybe, this is the start of a new beginning for me...a new great start for me! I know God has a lot of good plans for me ahead. 'til here for now~! |
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| everything happens for a reason |
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| 10:51pm 04/07/2005 |
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mood:  stressed music: I think God can explain
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hmm...im still sad because of the things that is happening to me right now...haay..buhay...it's so hard for me adjust...there are a lot of things pa that will happen this month... First was the comelec interview with the SSC candidates (w/c was this morning-afternoon until tomorrow). Second is, I need to have six great pictures for photojourn. Third is, on Friday, we will be going to Manila for the consultation of our thesis for Intel. Fourth, our exams will be on monday and tuesday next week (shacks...I haven't reviewed my lessons yet). Then the fifth one is, I need to work on my book report (Pride and Prejudice) that is due on July 15...o my gosh..sobrang stress na2man..haay...well, I just think that everything happens for a reason and every problem has its own kapalit...i mean, maybe after all this things that is happening to me right now, has its brighter side...
God has plans for me and I know these are only his challenges...so I know I can surpass all of this by having faith, and believing in him... OH well..haay...hmm...i think this is it for now... |
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| fading friendship |
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| 10:42pm 01/07/2005 |
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mood:  life sucks! music: power of two
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i'm so stress this wik..as in... hay nako...ganun parin i still have a hang-over on what happened last week (the comelec issue). Well still deadma prin dun sa best friend ko.. as in no pansinan.. It's hard you know... on not talking to her because naging super close din kmi...she's like a sister to me...pero she had changed a lot...sobra...but i don't mind it before 'coz she's my friend so i tried to understand her...but she is too much now...so now, I don't know where I'll put my self...'coz I can't be with the sg if andun cya...cyempre i stil have hard feelings for her.
and now i'm so confuse if iiwanan k ang sg and maging scwmb. I really enjoy their company..kc sobrang nagbago lht halos sa sg...prng it's not like before na you will feel the friendship... but now? its like it's fading na...i can't understand out situation right now...it's hard to choose. it is hard to decide.
But somtimes, na aout of place din ako sa mga scwmb...kc nga i'm not a part of it...somtimes prng i fil na mejojoin ako sa kanila...and baka they will think na i'm just using them kc la ko kasama...pero hindi...ang hirap ng situation k right now 'coz i dont know wat to do...as in...haaay...watever..! |
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| one bad trip |
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| 09:45pm 25/06/2005 |
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mood: sobra... music: ..............
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I had been very emotional this past few weeks... it had been a very rough month for me...
My big problem was in school... as in "school" literally. So here is the story:
Last year, I joined the COTC and applied for the position of Executive officer or adjutant of the brigade staff (hopefully) so I really exerted effort in our training and tried to be an obedient applicant...I know I did my best all through out the training. But in those times (in the latter part of the training), I was thinking that, when I did not get the part that i applied for ( ex-o or S1 of the brigade staff) at least I can be at the brigade staff or be a paltoon leader. And that time, the position that i don't want was to be a company commander or any part of the company staff. So i was hoping to be in the brigade staff or to be a platoon leader.
After how many months of training and sacrifices, the day of the announcement of our positions finally came. It was late in the afternoon when our new commandant gathered us in the faculty room. I was so excited then to hear my position. But when the commandant was already finished announcing the brigade staff (w/c led by some people we didn't expect to be there and i don't have my name in it...), I felt a lil' bit nervous because the next one that will announce was the company staff. Saddly, the first name that he(the commandant) announced was my name (as the 1st company commander) so i was shocked when i heard my name 'coz i wasn't expecting that. I felt disappointed of the results...it's like all my effort for that whole training was useless. Then I told my self that maybe my best wasn't that good enough for me to be in the brigade staff or to be a platoon leader...So i didn't mind it nalang 'coz i just thought of the COMELEC 'coz anyway I was applying for Vice-chairman...
So My attention now was in re-applying again for the COMELEC 'coz we have a new adviser for it. 'coz last year, I was already a comelec commissioner and from the day when i became a comelec commissioner, I promised to myself that my goal for next year is to be a Vice-chairman of it. So I really did my best "again" as a commissioner.
But then, I found out earlier this year( mga jan or feb ata..) that my friend or i min my best friend(literally) was planning to apply also for vice-chairaman. So i told her "how's that? I am also planning to apply for it? eh di mamya kaw na makuha...( coz she is the soon to be salutatorian of our batch so u know na...i have no match to her)" but then she told me that she will suggest that if possible, we will have two vice-chairman (external and internal) but I told her " but what if pag hindi pwede?" but she told me "pwede an..." so i just trusted her that maybe they will allow us to have two vice-chairman so that both of us will have the positions we like. But i really somewhat doubt it 'coz i've never heard anything before that there became two vice-chairman in the comelec (in our school of course) but i didn't changed my mind in retreating as a vice-chairaman 'coz i really wanted to be a vice-chairman.
But then, a month before the start of our classes, she (my bestfriend) told me that she was planning now to apply for chairman who, also became that my other friend was planning to apply for it and to think that my other friend was the pinakamatagal na Comelec memeber in our batch (he was a member of it since he was in 2nd year-commissioner, 3rd year-secretary). So I became calm when I had heard of it 'coz safe na ko... but after a few weeks, she told me that she changed her mind...that she was again planning to apply for vice-chariman...so i told her "i thought you were planning to apply for chairman? how was that happen? is it because of him?(our other friend who was a comelec since 2nd year)" So i just didn't bother it...I just think of it as a challenge for me...
A day before the last passing of the application forms for the comelec, my other bestfriend also applied for v-chair (so we were three na na nagco2mpete for that position..)and I told her ( my best friend) that "_____ ibigay m nmn na skn tong position na toh..total sobrang taas nmn na ng position m sa CAT and sa CATALYST and ako maba2 lng nakuha k sa dalawang un." "e d b nga mag-aask tyu for 2 vice-chairman?"she said. then i told her.."parang pwede nmn..malabo ata..." "pwede an bzta sabihin ntn dalawa na ung pwede may two v-chairman"... so di nalng aku umimik 'coz malay nga ntn na they will allow us to have two v-chair...so a wik after that was our interview...so i expected to be an interview talaga so i prepared my self for it... but then the only thing that happened was a meeting...no interviews at all...so i asked our new adviser when will be our interview he said "on firday" so i expected uli on friday na tlga...
friday came...and again, it was a meeting and not to mention the announcement of our positions...so I was amazed that there was no interviews and yet they had decided our positions...then...I saw our adviser writing our positions in a piece of paper...chairman: my other friend...v-chairman: my best friend (then i told my self..shet...i didn't get the part...sana nilagay me as a secretary) but then... Secretary: my other best friend....shet...bagsak k lng as a commissioner nnmn?! then our adviser said that..."the principal won't allow us to have two v-chair...so i'm sorry (he was talking to me) we have to eliminate the two coz tatlo kyung nagapply for v-chair." i was really really disappointed that time and i was starting to cry but pinigilan k self k 'coz i dont want to cry in front of them..so i just kept quiet the whole meeting, tinitiis the pain inside me..
after the meeting, i really cried hard...'coz i was really determined to be a v-chair..and i really want it...it was my goal but then i failed... and the unfair part was...i wasn't given a chance to prove that i also deserve to have that position...and to think also that my best friend, had already many extra curicullar activities...and 2 out of 4 major organizations in our skul...nakuha nya ung 2nd to the highest position (excluding pa the COMELEC)and take note "major org." so i don't know if i'll get mad at her or to the principal 'coz there was no interviews..we were all appointed by that principal...i mean..that is so unfair isn't it? and bkt ganun ung anu pa ung pinaka ayaw kong position..un ung naku2ha k? so right now..the pain is still inside of me and i don't know when will i all absorb this situations( about the CAT and teh COMELEC)....it was a one bad trip!: |
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| vacation's over |
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| 08:39pm 06/06/2005 |
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mood:  blah music: 1st day funk....wahaha
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Summer's drawing to an end and I'm not really excited in going to school because I still want to have fun! And one thing that is bothering me...
is the entrance exams for college...oh God..i feel like i'm not ready to take it...and i fear of failing it...I need some major encouragement here...
well back to our topic... hmm...our class starts on june 8(that is 2 days from now) and it really sucks...because its too early...i cant believe it. because other school will start their class like a week from now...so arrgh! it really sucks...
But on the other hand,on the bright side of the story, senior na ako...senior na ako...! wahaha... at last.. after three years of being an undergraduate in high school, its my time to be the boss! wahaha...and i'm looking forward to that...hmm.. what is like to be a senior anyway? is it fun? or full of pressure? I guess the answer is yes? haha...
well..un lng...ehehe |
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| To the One I Love |
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| 09:31pm 27/05/2005 |
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mood: satisfied music: more than words
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To the one I love, the one I adore,
My only goal in life, the one I live for -
Though we might fight more than we get along,
I hope our relationship will never go wrong.
I love to be with you, I love you around;
I'm so glad I'm the one you found.
Though you may not see what you mean to me,
My love for you will always be.
I know you love me and I know you care;
That's why I treasure the love we share.
I want you to know I'm here for you,
Whatever it is I'll help you through.
To the one I love, the one I adore,
My love grows every day more and more. |
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| Loving You |
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| 09:27pm 27/05/2005 |
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mood:  loved music: kahit kailan
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Putting my feelings into words -
Impossible.
For my feelings for you are
Incomprehensible.
If I could let you see the effect you have on me,
You would be blinded.
For if you did the darkness would fade,
Shadows were no longer.
For I am in love,
More in love then I have been for a long time.
I love you is all I can say,
But my heart says more,
There is much more to my love,
Dreams, Hopes, Fantasies,
That all can become realities.
For with you I am a new me,
A me that shouldn't leave.
In these few words I hope you see,
How much you mean to me.
In Life, Love and Spirit,
I want you to hear it,
I Love You! |
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| one summer family reunion |
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| 09:08pm 24/05/2005 |
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mood: happy music: ...?
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It was a late saturday morning when we left for La Union for a family reunion. But not exactly with our relatives and everything but with my dad's barkada (as well as their family) way back in college. At first, I was lazy to go with them 'coz I want to attend my review in Newton but, I decided to go to that reunion 'coz my dad might get mad at me. oh well, so when we arrived at the house of my dad's friend, it was so hot..as in ang init...halos 'di ko matiis...but on the other hand, the view was splendid! Because the house was on top of a mountain so we could see the san Fabian beach (ata) bazta we can see the beach sa itaas..and it was soo cool...and not to mention, it has a pool! as in like swimming pool, so pag nagswi2mming ka, you can see the beach...haha...thank God nga na may pool cla! wahaha..but anyway, when we arrived na there, i saw na ung mga children ng barkada ng dad ko...they were at my age rin, some are older ng one year, and so on.. But dominant ang mga guys..three nga lng kmi girls andun(well, excluding ung mga mom nila) and the other pa was still in elementary so we were two lng na nagkakasunduan...so of course, at first, ala muna pansinan, hiyaan pa, then this girl approached me.she is older than me ng 4 years...so after nun, we chatted na...then we became friends..hehe then i also met some guys, particularly from manila (actually lahat sila taga-manila)hehe..so un..even if it was sooo boring,('coz their t.v. can only get one channel, that is, GMA)but it was fun 'coz i met some new friends!
So around 6:00pm, i decided to go swimming even if I had my period ( but it was my third day so it was lighter) 'coz i really like to swim a lot even if i'm not good at it...so, after that, i got the chance to be closer with my new friends by playing cards!( well not necessarily with cards only but also by chatting with them and exchanging life stories..wahaha...we stayed until 1:30 am then we woke up at around 8:30 am...but sad to say,after breakfast, we are going home na to our respective houses...But the important part was, i met some new friends and had a good time with them...good thing I attended this family reunion. I hope that there would be one again...and i hope to see them again soon...! well, that's it for now.. |
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| 05:59pm 16/05/2005 |
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mood: vewy saaaadddd..... music: girl by destiny's child
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May 13, 2005, pm. pat's farewell party. But unfortunately I didn't have the chance to be there because me and my mom have an important business to do. I'm so disappointed that day because I didn't have the chance to see pat for the very last time...She's my best friend and everything...in fact my she's my classmate in since nursery.
May 15, 2005, 7:30am: pat called me at home to say good-bye. She'll be going in Manila.
May 15, 2005, 9:30pm: pat's flight to london.
May 6, 2005, 6:09pm: a very sad day for me..'coz I miss her a lot.. We had a lot of memories to reminisce. I really miz her...She became a huge part of my life. I don't wanna cry now 'coz it'll only make me miss her a lot. And also, instead of being with her, I just stayed at home because I don't want to think that she's leaving. And for sure, I'll cry if ever I got the chance to be with her...let's just say that i'm not used to saying good-byes. This is my first time to have a friend migrating to another country...And its's hard for me to accept that...of course all of us don't want our friend/s leaving...Another sad part again is that there is no assurance of her "come back" in the Philippines.
But on the other hand I'm excited and happy for her...she'll be in a new environment, new friends, new home, new school, new place, new everything...I hope that it'll be easy for her to cope up there...
I hope that we will still be in touch with each other even if she is in London...I miss you pat! mwah! |
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| Friends for life! |
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| 11:16pm 28/04/2005 |
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mood: happy music: sige
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It's so nice to have real good friends..I'm so happy, lucky and thankful that I have these nice set of friends that I can trust and share my problems with. So who are these super nice set of friends? I am proud to present....(drum roll plz) DEA, PAT, GUIA, and MARZ...wooohoo...gosh..flattered na sila..hehe well anyway, we call ourselves as the "special girls." Where did it came from? It's a long story... Dea went in baguio last year and bought us some pins with a "you're special" written on it as a pasalubong..then after that, we decided to make that as the name of our group..hehe..long story right? well let me tell you about marz first. Marz is one of the most stylish girl (a.k.a. fashionista) in our group (next to me...ehem..joke). You'll always see hear wearing her favorite kind of shoes-the killer shoes...the one with a pointy end...She always wears that when we go to the mall or somewhere else.. She has a lot of shoes and a fan of kamiseta.. She always buys her clothes at kamiseta...and i think all of her clothes are signatured ones...(mayaman...)hehe..But even if sometimes her clothes doesn't really fit each other, but still, she carries it with confidence!( that makes her a certified fashionista! Wear the clothes you are comfortable with and don't mind what others say)this girl, is also the second most intelligent person in our batch..in short, the soon-to-be-salutatorian in our graduation next year...She also looooves to read books and has a wide vocabulary that sometimes she boasts it to us..(peace). So next stop, is guia. Guia is a very funny, talkative, noisy person. When I say , noisy, what i mean is her laugh..hehe..she laughs very loud..but not the annoying loud laugh...It's a very aliw loud laugh..hehe... But even if she's like that, she certainly can keep secrets. Because when it comes to secrets, she's like a walking diary...guia also ia a fun-to-be-with person. She's very energetic and hyper...and that's her trademark...next one is Dea. Dea, is a nice sweet type of girl...she's sometimes quiet but when you are with her, she's also talkative...hehe especially when we are having are phone sessions( a.k.a. telibabad)well, this gal is helpful but most of the time, lazy..hehe. And last but not the least... pat. Pat was my classmate since we were in nursery(except in kinder). As in from nursery up to 3rd year h.s. But sad to say, she'll be in London this coming May 15 and will live there with her family. Very sad but true...We'll surely gonna miss her a lot...But about this gal? she's a lakwatchera..super..as in..she's present at every occasion and the one who schedules our outings...also, a KiCaCo addict...same with guia...they always stop by at that coffee shop..Sometimes, she can be very moody..yah..moody it is..hmm...those memories..well, my only wish for us is that, no matter where our path takes us, no matter what happen, I hope that our friendship will always be alive and even if we will have a new set of friends in college, I hope that we will be friends forever and be always a special girl.=) |
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| a new start |
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| 11:32pm 27/04/2005 |
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mood:  excited music: especially for you
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woohoo! at last..i have my own live journal.. well i heard of this live journal from my friend Dea..well, i saw hers so i became interested in making my own too. It's really kinda boring in here 'coz its vacation. But next week, we will have our review for the college entrance examinations...yippee! at last i can be with my friends now. Well, that's it for now...=> |
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